Anarchy

I loathe the word "commentary". The definition can be either positive or negative, but I almost always associate this word with the negative. Criticism or Critique. My patients typically do not enjoy the "running commentary" on their thoughts provided by exasperating auditory hallucinations. I do not appreciate commentary regarding my commentary.

I also do not take well to being told, "You shouldn't..." First, and most obvious is the fact that I do not like being told what to or not to do. Ask my parents! They will confirm this. I don't view this as a completely faulty personality trait. I think it has actually gotten me to where I am now, both personally and professionally. I also just find it condescending. It's not really worth your breathe to tell me that I shouldn't do something because I can probably rattle on forever about everything I do that I shouldn't.

I shouldn't:
1. Cuss: I do. A lot. I try to censor when necessary.
2. Sleep In: I hate mornings. I hate my alarm clock. I am not naturally set to rise early. I like the night.
3. Hate Myself: I don't actually hate myself, but I certainly find it hard to love myself. I am "should" love my body, but I don't. I am embarrassed by the shape it has taken.
4. Eat Processed Sugar: I try not to, but I do. I can justify it by mixing sugary goods like peanut butter cups with frozen yogurt. The yogurt is "healthy".
5. Judge: I silently judge everyone. It's not always bad.
6. Lie: Sometimes I do. I'm not a good "big" liar, but a little white lie here and there doesn't seem problematic to me.
7. Break Rules: I LOVE to break rules! I believe in the philosophy that one should not ask for permission, rather ask for forgiveness. Rule breakers make history and create revolutions.
8. Be Late: No matter how hard I try to be on time I am usually a few minutes late. Unless my life or some other life depends on my timeliness I will likely be a bit late.
9. Hold Grudges: I have a hard time forgetting. I might bring up prior lapses in judgment, stupidity, or thoughtlessness from years ago, if we fight again.
10. Put "Real" Trash in the Recycle Bin: I'm sorry! Sometimes, I don't want to exert the energy to mentally sort out what can and cannot go in the blue bin.

I could go on, but I should stop.